I have been back at work for three weeks.

That’s three weeks of no longer being able to say I am a stay at home mom.

Three weeks of cramming my head full of new knowledge and loving the challenge.

Three weeks of regularly interacting with people over the age of three.

Three weeks of dressing like a professional adult again.

Three weeks of getting my two sweet boys out of bed and dressed and giving them over to someone else to watch for the day.

Three weeks of moments where they are all I can think about, but not what I need to focus on in the moment.

Three weeks of feeling like I am standing on a see-saw trying to remember how to balance again.

Three weeks of loving and hating the changes all at once.

I’m not questioning my choice.

I’m thankfully taking the opportunity.

But some moments are just hard.

Some moments make my heart ache.

And some moments are so beautiful and life giving.

I have a long way to go in fully embracing this change.

I have a long way to go in becoming a well rounded working mom.

But I’m up for the challenge.